And, truth be told, there is probably one that is about people who become dependent on prescribed medication. But before I get ahead of myself, let’s rewind to February of last year when I was sexually assaulted. I’ve blogged a little bit about it before, but my life was very much in shambles.
I was also diagnosed with insomnia. I would lay in bed at night, too afraid to fall asleep for fear that something bad would happen. I would jump at every noise. So, I just wouldn’t sleep at all. I think at one point I had been awake for 3 days straight. When I did fall asleep, I would endure night terrors that were so vivid, I would wake up screaming, sweating and with my heart racing.
To combat this issue, I was prescribed Ambien for sleeping and Prazosin for nightmares. Both worked amazingly well and I would say that within two weeks, I was back on a more normal sleeping schedule. Within six months, I was feeling rested and getting energy back after back-to-back nights of restful sleep. I began talking to my doctor about decreasing my dosage of it, because I felt great.
So, we cut my dosage in half and it was only going to be used “as needed”. Except when I began taking the half dosage and not falling asleep right away as I had been used to, I started to get frustrated. My frustration led to feeling wide awake as soon as my head hit the pillow, browsing my phone in bed (BAD BAD BAD) and laying there for hours wondering if I “fell asleep right now, I would get X hours of sleep tonight.” Don’t act like you don’t play that game, too!
I didn’t like this answer, but I knew he was right. I also knew that I needed to quit relying on medicine, when I could solve my problems by adjusting some factors in my life.