My Biggest Fears

Happy Tuesday, everyone! I hope you had a wonderful and relaxing Labor Day weekend. Dane and I did a ton of relaxing, which was so welcomed after last weekend’s Hurricane Lane madness. We went to happy hour, took the dogs for long walks, enjoyed nachos at home and even had plans for a great hike. On Monday morning, we got up for a sunrise hike with friends, only to have our car die on us. This is not the first time this has happened (ugh) so we are well-versed in what to do when it just stops in the middle of the dang road, but it unfortunately derailed our entire day. If you were wondering, not many tow trucks were working before dawn on a holiday weekend 😉 It’s okay though, we still made the most of our Monday, neither of us were hurt or injured and things could have been much, much worse. We don’t have any answers for why our car keeps doing this, but it’s having a little staycation at the dealership and we have a loaner car in the meantime. In any case, I’m back with day two of my September Blogging Challenge.  If you missed my blogging challenge announcement post, I’ve been feeling a little bit uninspired by blogging and social media and I wanted to bring it back to where it all began…little old me behind my keyboard tapping away. And so – that’s what is happening! I know there are “blog every day” challenges, but honestly – I don’t blog every day as it is, so committing to 30 days was intimidating for me. Instead, I put together 20 prompts that really inspired me and whipped up a list for when you can expect them here. Today’s prompt in the challenge is my biggest fears and I was kind of dreading this one – is it weird to put what scares us “out there”? Either way, I’m here today dishing my biggest fears in life, so if that’s something you are interested in, stick around! If you are joining in today’s topic, feel free to link up at the bottom so I can come take a look 🙂

My Biggest Fears

One of the reasons I chose this blog prompt is honestly – because sharing my biggest fears is one of my fears. Is that a weird reason? I believe in manifestation, so part of me is a tad bit worried that by putting out what scares me that it will, in some weird way, come back to me. So I chose it to sort of get over that fear and here we are. How many times can I say fear in one paragraph?! 😉

I took a little bit of time to really think about this prompt and I just kept coming back to living life without my family. That is my biggest fear. I’ve learned that everything in life is temporary (even life itself, truly), but a life without family just scares the hell out of me and isn’t something I ever want to face. And for that matter – a life without friends and the people I love. I think that Dane and I can both agree that we have made friends who feel like family. Thanks to his military service, we also have our military “framily” and I wouldn’t trade those friendships for anything in the world. Anyone can agree that some of the best people are the ones you meet when you very least expect it, that make you laugh till your stomach hurts, the ones you can call no matter the place or time of day, the ones you don’t clean up before they come over, you can ask anything…you know the people! We all have them and losing those people in my life terrifies me.

I think in some ways, I really fear disappointing my parents and failing professionally. I’m a Capricorn, so I have a tendency to be incredibly ambitious, but also place a lot of my own self-worth on how successful I perceive myself to be, regardless of how successful I actually am (if that makes sense).

Some other fears I have include:

Snakes – I grew up in a family where my parents would randomly find snakes in the yard and it always made me want to puke. There’s just something about them, I can’t stomach! Also geckos – those things move really freaking fast and we’ve seen some huge ones out here. Just stay out of my house, mmk?

Scary movies/haunted houses – Check please. I will never go to a scary movie at a theater, I probably don’t want to see the latest Stephen King mini-series and I sure as shit don’t want to go to a haunted anything on Halloween. Oddly enough, psychological thriller books are my favorite. Weird?

Feeling trapped – This is a kind of weird one, but I have this fear of being somewhere (a concert, airplane, movie theater, etc) and not being able to get out. It doesn’t really bother me day-to-day, per se, but I do recognize it in myself when I go to events and immediately identify all the nearest exits and ways I could potentially get out if I had to. Being in places with only one exit sort of make me panic a bit, or being in a space with no safe exit (i.e. a plane at 30,000 feet). As you can imagine, the Hawaii missile scare sent this into overdrive.

Heights – I can handle them, but they aren’t my favorite. I have to really hype myself up to conquer them on hikes and even then, I can’t get too close to the edge or my stomach will drop into my butt.

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